Why I hate Equation, a continuation.

List of problems with Equation:

-Emily, Josh(s), Alesha, Mrs. Fetingis, etc...all forgot my birthday

-In lieu of forgotten birthday, they made me a cake. While I was there.

-The cake tasted like baked sugar with flour. And some more sugar on top of that.

-In thinking "Hey, today is my birthday." I asked Josh if I could play Guitar Hero with them. He said no.

-I sat. Alone. And cold. Next to my do nothing of a "boyfriend". Watching everyone else play Guitar Hero. On my birthday.

-The only upside of the night was when I got my gift from the gift exchange: a board game Risk. Except for when Emily called me today and asked if I could bring it back, because it was 'supposed to be for Equation as a whole'.

-Spawn of Satan (Marc) goes there. I don't want to go near his never-moving rear. The only traveling he does is around his friggn Arizona tea can.

Quote time..."It really hurt me that you forgot my birthday, Emily. Not only that, but when I asked you and Josh if I could simply play a song of Guitar Hero with you, you said no. That left me sitting next to ...marc...wishing that I had never gone to Equation in the first place. You know, my friends from my old school whom I haven't talked to or really seen in over 4 months had the dignity to give me a call and say Happy Birthday, yet you whom I see very often and talk to quite often completely forget. I thought long and hard about why you could have forgotten something like that, and the only thing I could come up with is that I'm simply not important enough to you to be remembered. Sure, we all make mistakes, have busy days, and can forget things, but at the end of the day, you remember what's really important to you. Guess I just wasn't that. Don't give me a sorry, it's too late for that. It's also unnecessary, because if you really had been sorry, your actions would have spoken louder than your words. Yes, you gave me a gift, and to be honest I did really appreciate and enjoy it, but the fact that you weren't actually putting forth any effort to have a real birthday celebration just tore me apart. I've gone through more hard times in the past year of my life then I think you can realize, and you guys at Equation were one of the only walls that I had leaned on. However, any and all walls there that I leaned agaist have now been shattered, thanks to circumstances beyond my control. Perhaps it was a quixotic combination between the fact that I don't believe in the same ideas that you do and the fact that I truely can't relate to any of you there that made the bond I once shared come to a crashing halt. Whatever the factor, I feel ready to take the next step and move on, whichever direction that may take me. Maybe this will all just blow over and I can regain some sort of sense of belonging at Equation, because I'm willing to give it one more shot. If it falls through again, though, I am ready and prepared to continue on my own journey without the help from Equation.
I know that we're all human and forget things, but you never forget those who hold deep meaning to your life. For whatever reason, any meaning I had with/to you has been lost, and I'm utterly clueless as how to go about regaining that.
So thank you for all the pleasant memories and the painted cookies, and I hope that the best possible things come to pass between and among us all.
Here's to hoping for a fabulous New Year,
Lukewarm regards,
xxxxxxx"