My soul is growing...cold...

And by that, I'm not just referring to the subzero temperatures that lurk outside my brother's apartment building.

Yeah, for a week I came out to his place and have been living for awhile. It's been fun, but I'm totally ready to go home. Although I've had some good talks and hang outs with my brother, his boyfriend, and his roommate, I'd like to go back home. All this socializing has been a bit much for me. I'm more of an introvert.

As for 'my soul growing cold', that's referring to the shitty way my friends have been treating me lately. For example, they forgot about my birthday. On top of that, on the day of said birthday which they forgot, whenever I asked them to do something with me, I was either blatently ignored or mocked.

So my birthday, in a way, fucking stunk.

Plus, my boyfriend hasn't taken me on more than two dates. Did I mention we've been dating for six weeks now?

Mhm. I got a twenty dollar bill and a generic 'Happy Birthday' card too.

Ooh, godda love those 99 cent deals!

Eh, Marc...sometimes I want to spork out his eyes and drain his head of it's cranial fluids o.0

In conclusion, my friends aren't really my friends, and therefore I think my soul is starting to turn cold.
Why?
Because when they smile or wave at me or just try to communicate with me in general, I either turn my head away or give them a look of pure hatred and/or disgust.

And it doesn't effect me.

Hmm...I need a new group.