Thought provoking. I recommend you watch this.

Just a note, don't bother sending me feedback about my "radical Christian views".


I am NOT a Christian.

I consider myself an open minded non-religious person, with dabbling interests in Neo-Paganism and Wicca.

ABC's of Growing Up and Life

This post will take several days to complete because I need time to think about what to write for each letter. I want it to be pretty good, and good things take time!

Rome was most certainly not built in one day.
And patience is a virtue.
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Apathy. Apathy is that deep feeling you get when your mind and soul have had enough. Sometimes you get this feeling at exactly the wrong time. The best cure for apathy is to watch the sunrise or the sunset, because it stirs wonder, passion, and the imagination.
Betrayal. Betrayal is unavoidable. No matter who you are, you have been betrayed at least once in your life. Perhaps you've even betrayed yourself. To put it simply, not a single soul will ever be completely faithful and kind to you, so you've got to figure out who's worth the pain.
Criticism. Most people are too thin-skinned to accept criticism. When taken and spoken correctly, criticism can take a decent idea or invention and polish it up, creating something that changes the way the world thinks or operates.
Death. Death is very real, very natural, and it can be very painful at times. Not a day goes by without people dying. We all just have to find our way of coping with it and continue to live until it's our time.
Empathy. Not enough people in this world are empathetic. You don't have to be a Mother Teresa to have empathy, all you have to do is try to imagine yourself in the place of a hurting person and offering them all the comfort that you can. Even if it's simply a little kid with a scrape on their knee.
Faithfulness. If you can find someone who is faithful or loyal to you, treasure that person, because they are a diamond among the rocks.
Gratefulness. Being a grateful person will make your life seem to be more fulfilled and have more purpose in it. Besides, in this world filled with greedy Scrooges, we are in desperate need of more thankful people to be around us.
Hollywood. We've all seen it, we've all heard stories about it, and we've all fantasized about being there. At the end of the day, though, you realize that all you really need is right in front of you, just waiting to be discovered and appreciated.
Integrity. Integrity is something that is highly overlooked and definitely under appreciated. When you find someone who has integrity, make that person close to you, because they are priceless.
Kindness. Kindness and being nice are two separate entities that are too commonly thought to be the same thing. To be nice is very easy, you simply tolerate someone or something, but to be kind is much harder. You must genuinly feel sympathetic or caring towards said person or thing, and for some people, being so is nearly impossible.
Lies. Everyone is going to lie to you, whether it be a big fib or just a little white lie. It's simply how life and people are, and you must learn how to properly handle it.
Marriage. When the time is right, marriage can be the most beautiful and powerful thing that exists. If you are lucky enough to find someone worthy of marrying, you must be equally as willing to work hard to maintain your love and trust of one another, lest you fall out of love.
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People. People come in all shapes and sizes. They also come in various personality types and physical characteristics. No matter who they are or what they look like, they are all equal to one another, and therefore deserve to be treated with equal respect and love.
Q
Religion. One of the most controversial things that exists on this Earth, religion varies from person to person, and to some religion doesn't even exist. The best way to handle this is to listen to what the other person says and respect what they believe and think is right. If more people were like this, there would be no such things as martyrs.
Silence. Everyday the simple sound of silence is underestimated. It's almost impossible to be in utter quiet for more then a minute, but if you find a place where you can sit in silence for a longer period of time, you will notice a change in yourself and your soul.
Trust. Trust is something that is hard to earn, but even harder to keep. You can have someones trust pretty easily, but once you have broken it once, you almost never get it fully back.
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V
Wishes. Everyone has wishes, hopes, and dreams. Having things you desire is not a bad thing. In fact, if you don't have anything that you long for or to be, you have nothing to live for. So wishes keep you alive.
X
Youth. In general, to have youth is to be naive and carefree. Most people look down on those younger then them because they have less experience and are not as mature as they are. Those few people who can humble their egos and place themselves in the shoes of the young, though, will realize that while there may not be much wisdom in youth, there is an abundance of innocence, and those who are young must be brought up into wisdom, so that they can shape the world of tomorrow.
Z

Depression has many definitions.

Here are some things a person with depression might say, believe, feel, or think.
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Nothing you can say to me can make me feel better...


I just want to be alone.


Even when with I'm with that special someone, I still feel e m p t y inside.


Nobody will ever understand what it feels like to be me.


Can't everyone just disappear?


How come nobody gives a damn about me?


Life is shit.


I don't know what's keeping me alive...all I want to do is sink into this cold earth beneath me and never wake up.


If God exists, why does he hate me? What the fuck did I ever do to him?


People don't have the ability or desire to love somebody like me.


I have no purpose.


It feels like I'm dead inside, just an empty shell wandering this forgotten and damned earth....


Love isn't a real feeling, its a myth we tell others so they have something to cling to.


I wonder if anybody would really miss me if I simply disappeared.

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Just some food for thought.

Fake It by Seether

I have decided to dedicate this song to my ex.

It describes him perfectly. Especially the parts in bold.

Tee hee.

I almost hope that he finds out that I've dedicated it to him.
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Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fucking hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out if direction
Fake it, if you don't belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fucking hypocrite
Whoa, whoa

I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it with the best of 'em all
I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped man
Follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fucking hypocrite

Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fucking hypocrite

In the wise words of Walter...

"What the hell was I thinking? Someone kill me please!"

Walter, you are absolutely right.
Only I'm not talking about marriage woes, I'm talking about dating and boys in general.

You see, I've come to the conclusion that the only way you can guarantee that you will never be hurt by anyone is to simply live in seclusion, not have a relationship with anybody, boy or girl.

But at the same time, your heart begins down one of two roads: either you will become extremely lonely and crave to be around other humans, or your heart will harder and become numb, never wanting anything to do with homo sapians again.

At this point in my life, I would prefer to risk that though.

What's the worst thing that could possibly happen?

(P.S.-If you haven't realized it already, my boyfriend is now my EX boyfriend. For several reasons. Number one being that he's a fucking hypocrite.)